When We Lost Our Heads
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Summary
A spellbinding story about two girls whose friendship is so intense it not only threatens to destroy them， it changes the trajectory of history。
Marie Antoine is the charismatic， spoiled daughter of a sugar baron。 At 12 years old， with her blond curls and her unparalleled sense of whimsey， she's the leader of all the children in the Golden Mile， an affluent strip of 19th century Montreal。 Until one day in 1873， when Sadie Arnett， dark-haired， sly， and brilliant， moves to the neighborhood。
Marie and Sadie are immediately united by their passion and intensity， and they attract and repel each other in ways that light each of them on fire。 Marie with her bubbly charm sees the light and sweetness of the world， whereas Sadie's obsession with darkness is all consuming。 Soon their childlike games take on a thrill of danger and then become deadly。
Forced to separate， they spend their teenage years engaged in acts of alternating innocence and depravity--until a singular event unites them once more， with dizzying effects。 And after Marie inherits her father's sugar empire and Sadie disappears into the city's gritty underworld， a revolution of the working class begins to foment。 Each of them will have unexpected roles to play in events that upend their city--the only question is whether they will find each other once more。
Traveling from a repressive finishing school to a vibrant brothel， taking readers firsthand into the brutality of factory life and the opulent lives of Montreal's wealthy， When We Lost Our Heads dazzlingly explores gender and power， sex and desire， class and status， and the terrifying power of the human heart when it can't let someone go。
Marie Antoine is the charismatic， spoiled daughter of a sugar baron。 At 12 years old， with her blond curls and her unparalleled sense of whimsey， she's the leader of all the children in the Golden Mile， an affluent strip of 19th century Montreal。 Until one day in 1873， when Sadie Arnett， dark-haired， sly， and brilliant， moves to the neighborhood。
Marie and Sadie are immediately united by their passion and intensity， and they attract and repel each other in ways that light each of them on fire。 Marie with her bubbly charm sees the light and sweetness of the world， whereas Sadie's obsession with darkness is all consuming。 Soon their childlike games take on a thrill of danger and then become deadly。
Forced to separate， they spend their teenage years engaged in acts of alternating innocence and depravity--until a singular event unites them once more， with dizzying effects。 And after Marie inherits her father's sugar empire and Sadie disappears into the city's gritty underworld， a revolution of the working class begins to foment。 Each of them will have unexpected roles to play in events that upend their city--the only question is whether they will find each other once more。
Traveling from a repressive finishing school to a vibrant brothel， taking readers firsthand into the brutality of factory life and the opulent lives of Montreal's wealthy， When We Lost Our Heads dazzlingly explores gender and power， sex and desire， class and status， and the terrifying power of the human heart when it can't let someone go。
Reviews
Melissa Inman
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2。5 I loved this at first but then it got to out there and to cluttered with subplots and other characters。
ROBYN MARKOW
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（ 4 1/2 *'s） Heather O'Neil writes books that have an off-kilter feel to them ;this one being a perfect example。。 It's about two girls Marie Antione and Sadie Arnett ，who meet while growing up in Victorian-era Montreal。 Both live in the city's ultra-rich "Golden Mile" district。 Though her mother died shortly after she born， Marie has a fairytale upbringing ， spoiled by her doting father ， Louis ，who inherited his wife's family sugar mill（ and whose bags all have a portrait of his daughter on the （ 4 1/2 *'s） Heather O'Neil writes books that have an off-kilter feel to them ;this one being a perfect example。。 It's about two girls Marie Antione and Sadie Arnett ，who meet while growing up in Victorian-era Montreal。 Both live in the city's ultra-rich "Golden Mile" district。 Though her mother died shortly after she born， Marie has a fairytale upbringing ， spoiled by her doting father ， Louis ，who inherited his wife's family sugar mill（ and whose bags all have a portrait of his daughter on them ）。and loved by everyone she meets 。 Then Sadie Arnett and her family move into the neighborhood。 Sadie's parents are social climbers who can barely afford to live in their new home but no matter since the patriarch of the family is planning on getting ahead in politics and having his son do the same。 Marie and Sadie meet and though are complete opposites ， instantly take to one another and form an intense friendship。 Until a poetry reading contest where both girls win。 The girls agree to a duel to decide the true "Winner" ， using Louis' shotguns。 One of the maid's from Antoine's household tries to stop the duel ， but she's too late and is killed by both girls。 The incident is covered up（ of course） and Sadie is sent off to a strict English boarding school as punishment and to keep the girls apart。Marie's only punishment is her constant longing for her best friend and soulmate。 The years pass and Marie reluctantly agrees to marry Sadie's older brother under one condition-that his family allow Sadie to come home 。 They do that and Sadie arrives back in Montreal，more rebellious than ever。Her parents want her institutionalized so she runs off and ends up Montreal's "Squalid Mile" which is the polar opposite of her former neighborhood。 Still，for all it's squalor， Sadie finds herself free for the first time in her life and ends up living （ and later working） in a brothel ，sharing an attic room with a non-binary woman named George whom becomes Sadie's lover and help-meet while she works on a highly fictionalized novel based on her and Marie's friendship，which is published in spite of it's very un-proper themes and becomes a bestseller。 Marie meanwhile， is left the sugar factory after her father dies while having sex with one of his housemaids and Marie calls off her engagement。 She's even more uncaring about her workers than her father ever was and only cares about profits。 She also never wants to see Sadie again as she feels abandoned by her Then there's Mary， a worker who's Marie's mirror image ， Thanks to blackmailing Marie's late father， Mary gets a bakery on the premises of the factory where she bakes magical-looking cakes（using the factory's sugar ，of course ）and dreams of being as rich as Marie， whom she's despised from the moment she meets her。 When Marie finds out about the book，she's very intrigued and calls on Sadie and the two resume their friendship。 A heartbroken George decides to channel her pain into writing herself but instead of sexual fantasy， writes about social reform and becomes a popular writer in her own right（ no pun intended） This book covers alot of ground and I don't want to give away anything。 It's about friendship， romantic/obsessive love between two women ， the poor being exploited by the rich ，the power of the written word ， Unionization，Women's Right's， and most importantly， woman wanting to live on their own terms，without a man to make decisions for them。 It goes on a bit long and gets heavy-handed at times， even though I always get the sense that the author is being tongue -in-cheek， since much of it seems like very dark humor with a message。 O'Neil's writing isn't for everyone， but that's what I like about it。 This book may be set in the Victorian age but it definitely is a reflection of today's issues as well。。 。。。more
Tatiana Malatesta
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4。8
Courtney
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4。5 stars
Laura Apperson
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Such poetic writing and vibrant characters。 Felt a little disconnected from the narrative as a whole for the sake of forcing the focus back to the two main characters—I was more interested in others as the book went on and wanted to stick with them。
Tracey
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I really wanted to love this！ Too many twists and sub plots and many were super obvious to me and not really necessary to move the story！ Glad I finished it and glad I read it， but didn't love it as much as I thought I would。 I really wanted to love this！ Too many twists and sub plots and many were super obvious to me and not really necessary to move the story！ Glad I finished it and glad I read it， but didn't love it as much as I thought I would。 。。。more
Sheila
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4 stars--I really liked it。 Not for the squeamish。I wasn't sure about this book at first （the style seemed stilted and passive to me）。。。 but then I realized what the book was trying to do， and it grew on me！ This is a story about some very， very naughty girls， but it's also a satire about the French Revolution， and it's also （most importantly， I think） a moving tale of what it's like to be a woman。 And George is my favorite character of 2022 so far。 4 stars--I really liked it。 Not for the squeamish。I wasn't sure about this book at first （the style seemed stilted and passive to me）。。。 but then I realized what the book was trying to do， and it grew on me！ This is a story about some very， very naughty girls， but it's also a satire about the French Revolution， and it's also （most importantly， I think） a moving tale of what it's like to be a woman。 And George is my favorite character of 2022 so far。 。。。more
Betsi Farris
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Easily the most bizarre， twisted， fantastical book I’ve read。 O’Niell’s characters were developed masterfully - completely despicable， yet fascinating。 And the writing was maybe the best ever。 I’m in awe of this one！
Janina
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Actual rating: 4。5Someone tried to sell me this book as Canadian My Brilliant friend but dark and twisted （as if The Neapolitan Quarter was a fluffy read）。 Apart from the codependent and entwined complex female friendship， it’s not really like My Brilliant Friend。 It stands on its own merit。 But it really is dark and twisted， beautiful， decadent， and at times powerful。 Sometimes there is a hammering of themes and heavy handed metaphors where I’d prefer nuance but the story is engrossing enough f Actual rating: 4。5Someone tried to sell me this book as Canadian My Brilliant friend but dark and twisted （as if The Neapolitan Quarter was a fluffy read）。 Apart from the codependent and entwined complex female friendship， it’s not really like My Brilliant Friend。 It stands on its own merit。 But it really is dark and twisted， beautiful， decadent， and at times powerful。 Sometimes there is a hammering of themes and heavy handed metaphors where I’d prefer nuance but the story is engrossing enough for me to give it a high rating。 。。。more
Deborah
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This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers。 To view it， click here。 was a bit let down by the eventual death， but i couldn't put the book down so ultimately enjoyed it！ was a bit let down by the eventual death， but i couldn't put the book down so ultimately enjoyed it！ 。。。more
Stacie Jacques
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I enjoyed the beginning but the middle dragged a bit and the ending I found to be a bit anti climatic。I didn't particularly like any of the characters except George a bit。 This was obviously intentional but have always found it hard to get into a book when I don't like any of the characters。A lot of the issues in the book， women"s right， power， poverty， sexuality， gender， etc。 are sadly relevant today still which is what kept me going to the end。 I enjoyed the beginning but the middle dragged a bit and the ending I found to be a bit anti climatic。I didn't particularly like any of the characters except George a bit。 This was obviously intentional but have always found it hard to get into a book when I don't like any of the characters。A lot of the issues in the book， women"s right， power， poverty， sexuality， gender， etc。 are sadly relevant today still which is what kept me going to the end。 。。。more
Kevin
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Review in Progress[Overdrive ebook]
Clary
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I wasn’t expecting the ending ngl
Leslie
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DNF…。cringy at times。
Diane Melanson
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From the opening pages， O'Neill sets the stage for the oppositions which are constant in the novel: love and hate， power and submission， rich and poor， class and gender， life and death。 The novel explores not only the friendship of the two protagonists， Marie and Sadie， but their roles as leaders in their different circles， one wealth in the industrial world and the other literary triumphs。 While they are leaders in one leader， Mary and George become leaders in another， meeting other women to in From the opening pages， O'Neill sets the stage for the oppositions which are constant in the novel: love and hate， power and submission， rich and poor， class and gender， life and death。 The novel explores not only the friendship of the two protagonists， Marie and Sadie， but their roles as leaders in their different circles， one wealth in the industrial world and the other literary triumphs。 While they are leaders in one leader， Mary and George become leaders in another， meeting other women to incite change through revolution。 The writing is beautiful and absorbing。 O'Neill has always shown a deftness with words and it is on full glorious display here。 。。。more
Mary Mathis
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just like elena ferrante！
Renae
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Unique and gripping story about a toxic friendship between two upper-class girls in Victorian-era Montreal; the author's attempts to draw parallels to the French Revolution were heavy-handed and too vague to add anything of importance to the narrative。📌 。 Blog | Review Database | Twitter | Instagram | Goodreads Unique and gripping story about a toxic friendship between two upper-class girls in Victorian-era Montreal; the author's attempts to draw parallels to the French Revolution were heavy-handed and too vague to add anything of importance to the narrative。📌 。 Blog | Review Database | Twitter | Instagram | Goodreads 。。。more
mikaylalovesbooks
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Delectable， I ate this book up ！！！This book quite honestly has to be my favorite book of all time。 I literally decided this on page 200。 I was slowly reading it over time so that I wouldn’t read it too fast and could savor it。 This is my first book by Heather O’Neill and it literally drove me to rush and order any other book she has ever written。 The women in this book are so complex and very hard to put into words。 There was no dull moment in my eyes。 The themes just kept developing over time。 Delectable， I ate this book up ！！！This book quite honestly has to be my favorite book of all time。 I literally decided this on page 200。 I was slowly reading it over time so that I wouldn’t read it too fast and could savor it。 This is my first book by Heather O’Neill and it literally drove me to rush and order any other book she has ever written。 The women in this book are so complex and very hard to put into words。 There was no dull moment in my eyes。 The themes just kept developing over time。 And not to mention the women in this book are completely unhinged and I love it。 GOD I LOVE IT。 To me these aren’t lovable characters that you want to call your favorite， but they are also characters that you can’t bring yourself to hate because you understand them。 This is a very character driven book。 These are the best types of books and so far this is the best version of this type of book that I have read。 This tackles issues about power， gender， sexuality， inequality， and so much more。 If you are a fan of unhinged women’s fiction， this is definitely your type of book and should be your next buy right away！！！ 。。。more
Caroline
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"To be alive is to be in a constant state of revolution。" HOLY SMOKES what did I just read？！ This tale is wicked and delicious。 The writing is sublime。 What a study of power and subversion and class and gender among 19th century women。 "To be alive is to be in a constant state of revolution。" HOLY SMOKES what did I just read？！ This tale is wicked and delicious。 The writing is sublime。 What a study of power and subversion and class and gender among 19th century women。 。。。more
Tiwa
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one of those books you read and wish you had thought it up yourself。such an amazing book
Weiling
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To en-gender a male-written revolution， say， the one in France that was inspired by the European Enlightenment， entails something akin to witchcraft。 When We Lost Our Heads is an exemplary one of Heather O’Neill’s doing。 Constructed on the insuppressible power of women’s “dangerous pleasures” — sexual enjoyment without men’s presence and supervision that reveals the vulnerable fantasy of male control — the writing massages into the lived experiences of late-1800s industrializing Montreal the his To en-gender a male-written revolution， say， the one in France that was inspired by the European Enlightenment， entails something akin to witchcraft。 When We Lost Our Heads is an exemplary one of Heather O’Neill’s doing。 Constructed on the insuppressible power of women’s “dangerous pleasures” — sexual enjoyment without men’s presence and supervision that reveals the vulnerable fantasy of male control — the writing massages into the lived experiences of late-1800s industrializing Montreal the histories of social changes that came both before and after。 The city’s bilingualism， English and French， overlapped with the social division between the upper and working classes， which was also geographically demarcated by the hill （the fictional Golden Mile of the aristocrats） and the river （the fictional Squalid Mile of the unpropertied）。As if in an alternative universe （or political theater）， the dignities of the French Revolution are brought together to face off each other again， with feminized names if the original were male， to re-enact the privileges and passions that had once plunged them into one of human history’s best-known vortexes of the competition for power。 They are asked to abandon the original script of the making of the modern Man presumed to be the central agent of morality， history， society， economy， and aesthetics。 Instead， their late-1800s Montreal script asks that they read against that normative invention of Man and present two intertwining feminist revolutions along two antagonistic class lines。 And of course， Montreal’s own legendary Leonard Cohen serves as the executive musical director。In the current cast， we have:Queen Marie Antoinette， wife of Louis XVI （the couple was beheaded during the Reign of Terror instituted by Rousseauist Jacobins）， playing Marie Antoine， the heiress of Louis Antoine’s business kingdom of sugar and industrial queen of the Golden Mile。 Marie’s favorite food is cake。Marquis de Sade， an ardent critic of the Enlightenment philosophers known for writing libertine literature from prisons and from whose name the term sadism was derived， playing Sadie Arnette， the satirist aristocratic “philosopher in the bedroom” and long-term lover of Marie’s。 Based on their romantic friendship， Sadie writes the famous libertine novel Justine and Juliette as a personal vengeance to her father and brother， the self-appointed middle-class moral vanguards trying， not very successfully， to live an upper-class life。Maximilien Robespierre， the mastermind of the Jacobin Club that upended the French monarchy， playing Mary Robespierre， an ambitious baker striving to survive in and break through the shadow of the Antoines’ sugar factory。 Looking strikingly like Marie Antoine， Mary Robespierre will become an authoritarian ringleader of the crimes against the ultra-rich committed by all the oppressed “Marys” in the city。George Jacques Danton， deputy to the Paris Commune and rival of Robespierre， playing George of unknown origin， a pro-choice midwife and talented publisher。 Collectively breastfed by the working-class prostitutes， George runs between the brothel， the women’s pharmacy， and underground publishing agencies in the Squalid Mile， weaving a network that she will later use for mass mobilization。Jean-Paul Marat， a political theorist， physician， and scientist， playing Jeanne-Pauline Marat， the gynecological pharmacist whom male physicians look down upon。 Jeanne-Pauline mentors prospective feminist revolutionaries and distributes politically and aesthetically radical writings and pamphlets。Despite that the French Revolution is rendered the subtext to the main story， fictionalizing history is not the goal of the novel。 O’Neill speaks rather explicitly to the brutality of late capitalism of our own time， of which white feminism is an integral contributor instead of its challenger。 One could see in Marie Antoine as much Marie Antoinette as present-day female leaders of big tech corporations who would crush labor rights as ruthlessly as their male counterparts。 Misogyny and rapist culture are universal regardless of class， but class difference is the fault line in “sisterhood” that will let the ideal of a unified， universalist “Woman” fall short of the goal of liberation。 Denying the plurality of “women” and punishing the innate connectivity between classes， sex-positive white feminism is on track to an inevitable failure。 Power does not become more benign when its holder， or rather， parasite， is a woman。 One could see in Mary Robespierre as much the authoritarian mentality of Maximilien Robespierre as key politicians in and beyond Europe whose politics has gone from democratic centralism to various levels of tyranny。 These references promptly deliver to the readers the continuity and consistence of the monstrosity of capitalism across time and space。On one level， the novel’s narrative revolves around femme affections， envy， and friendship within sisterhood — emotions and relationships that transcend times。 But the present is mercurial。 It slips， as if involuntarily， between the past and the future。 From time to time， the reader might feel like standing in Yayoki Kusama’s Infinite Mirror Room， observing “the souls of millions of light years away” and unable to tell from which epoch they each came from。 The original becomes the alternative， and the alternative the original。 What matters is the alignment of starlights formed by the carefully positioned mirrors， that is， the questions of the possibilities of an alternative way of being and collaborative living that are not dominated or corrupted by power。 How much of women’s struggle to simply be left alone has been documented as “legitimate” history？ How much of women’s bodily and intellectual participation in major events such as the French Revolution has been sidelined or silenced？ How much of these empathetically imagined experiences of women did actually happen but was intentionally excluded from history textbooks in order to make men the only legitimate planner of social change for the betterment of huManity？ These questions drive straight into the core of historiography that remains dominated by men in power。 At the end of the day， who are the “we” who lost the heads？ The （feminist） revolution needs to sort out the identities of both the “we” and the “heads” to be lost。 No quick answers， says history。 。。。more
Shelby
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Heather O’Neill， I love your twisted brain。 This was fantastic！
Kenisha
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This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers。 To view it， click here。 1。5 stars， probably。 Sorry。 This started off strong and I was genuinely curious to learn more about the two main characters， and a place/time in history I knew nothing about。 But after about 150 pages the book became so tedddddious and boring。 What a slog。 The main characters never develop past being teenagers， and the plot points were unbelievable and stupid。 For instance， Sadie's obsession with all things sex， and being horny 24/7 gets cringy quickly instead of being sexy and empowering。 Same 1。5 stars， probably。 Sorry。 This started off strong and I was genuinely curious to learn more about the two main characters， and a place/time in history I knew nothing about。 But after about 150 pages the book became so tedddddious and boring。 What a slog。 The main characters never develop past being teenagers， and the plot points were unbelievable and stupid。 For instance， Sadie's obsession with all things sex， and being horny 24/7 gets cringy quickly instead of being sexy and empowering。 Same with Marie who is supposed to be a tyrannical business mogul and a WOMAN too， but despite Sadie saying say so， I didn't feel any "admiration" or "respect" for her business savvy。 Maybe its because the book didn't really show anything， and just told me what to think。 The only "interesting" characters were the side ones （George， pharmacist， Mary） but we never learn anything about this。 And we got glimpses into the Industrial Revolution era， but it as only the most obvious things that everyone already knows （child labor， unsafe work conditions， wealth gap）。 I should've stopped reading after Part 1 :-/ 。。。more
Allison B
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This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers。 To view it， click here。 I loved this bookIt's like historical fiction girl power， really funny and fun but also covers serious/timely topics in a fresh way， to me。 And the coverrrrI'd recommend to all my girl friends， it's like the musical Chicago mixed with Marie Antoinette mixed with Les Mis mixed with Thelma and Louise， mixed with Bridgerton， I DON'T KNOW OK！！！ Just go read it in the park while you drink wine。 Quotes- "Both girl reflected on what their conversation must have sounded like to an impartial listener who I loved this bookIt's like historical fiction girl power， really funny and fun but also covers serious/timely topics in a fresh way， to me。 And the coverrrrI'd recommend to all my girl friends， it's like the musical Chicago mixed with Marie Antoinette mixed with Les Mis mixed with Thelma and Louise， mixed with Bridgerton， I DON'T KNOW OK！！！ Just go read it in the park while you drink wine。 Quotes- "Both girl reflected on what their conversation must have sounded like to an impartial listener who had not descended into their madness by degrees into their madness。 And they began to laugh。 In truth they were delighted by their indecency。"- "Ladies were supposed to moderate their physical behavior。 They were suppose d to speak in an articulate and reserved fashion。 They were not supposed to act as though they were transported by their emotions。 Because look what power the female imagination had。 People lost their grip on reality when Marie spoke to them。 Marie could lead people straight into the ocean。 She could make them accept the most sordid behavior。 She could start an orgy of some sort。 And she was so young。 She was only at the very beginning of her power。"- "There was never a moment of peace and quiet in the city。 It was always in the middle of building itself。"- "Was there a girl in the city who wasn't performing？"- "Even in her frazzled state of mind， beauty could arrest her。 As she stood for that brief moment in front of the display of hats behind the glass， she was aware of the life choice she was making。 She was leaving behind this world and all its perfectly arranged artifice。 As she began to descend farther south toward the river， she was aware she was moving behind the scenes of beauty。。。 Yes， she was going backstage。 Before， she had the opportunity to be one of the actors and perform onstage。 Now， she was going into the darkness where the stagehands crafted their illusions。"- "She felt a sadness about who she and Marie might be right now if they had not always been ordered to have such constrained movements as young ladies。"- "No。 I have no interest in appearing to men rationally。 We need to terrorize them。 We should be in control first。 And then they can ask us for permission to vote。"- "But Sadie was not actually a revolutionary。 She had only ever been in search of her own freedom。。。 Everything she wrote was from a place of privilege。 Hers was a different conversation from the ones the revolutionaries were having。"- "All the names of women who had participated and fought in the revolution were erased。 They had been written in invisible ink。 And the history of men had been written over theirs in indelible ink。 In order to see the history of women you had to put the page up against the window and let the light shine through。""To be alive is to be in a constant state of revolution。" 。。。more
Dorothea Gordon
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The writing style reminded me of existentialists like Sartre and Camus lacking emotions about the contents they describe。 I basically leafed through it - a fast read。 How enriching is it to know about two spoilt young girls who murder a servant girl？ The wealthier protagonist accuses the poorer one thus driving her into a low life existence of prostitution， S&M， and corruption。 There are definitely more rewarding books available！
Karen
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In 19th century Montreal， Marie Antoine is the daughter of the richest man in town。 When she meets Sophie Arnett， the daughter of a social climbing politician， they immediately become inseparable until a tragic accident causes Sophie to be sent to boarding school in England and for Marie to continue her spoiled life。 This is a novel about friendships that can be dangerous， feminism and the rights of workers。 Beautiful language。
Tori
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Very engaging story。 Pulled me in from the beginning and took me on a ride。
chloë iris
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yes… i most definitely read this to emotionally connect with the historical figure， marie antoinnette， depicted through the saccharine life of fictional protagonist， marie antoine。 it had absolutely nothing to do with the rococo sapphic fanfiction… no， none of that at all。 why do you ask？
Lori Hatcher
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Loved it。 One of best books of 2022 so far。
Jean
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“Everything was more fun with their masks on。 They were able to be small monsters。 With a mask on it was impossible to be evaluated as ugly or good looking。 They were freed from judgement and freed from authority。 The masks were a small barrier that protected the girls from men。 Men looked at them， but there was no way to read them。 They were hidden behind their masks。”
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