History Is All You Left Me
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- Author：Adam Silvera
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Summary
OCD-afflicted Griffin has just lost his first love， Theo， in a drowning accident。 In an attempt to hold onto every piece of the past， he forges a friendship with Theo's last boyfriend， Jackson。 When Jackson begins to exhibit signs of guilt， Griffin suspects he's hiding something， and will stop at nothing to get to the truth about Theo's death。 But as the grieving pair grows closer， readers will question Griffin's own version of the truth—both in terms of what he's willing to hide and what true love means。
Reviews
Яна Ангелова
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Amazing emotional Rollercoaster with a very unpredictable plot twist。
Rachel
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I—I don’t know how to write this one。 Luckily， Emily does: https://www。goodreads。com/review/show。。。 Her review captures all of it for me but it’s those intro and closing paragraphs that really hit the hardest。 History is All You Left Me is a deeply sad book with raw characters and so much emotion。 Unlike a lot of people in the reviews， I haven’t read Silvera’s debut book but I did read They Both Die in the End and absolutely fell in love with this author。 However， in this book we didn’t have al I—I don’t know how to write this one。 Luckily， Emily does: https://www。goodreads。com/review/show。。。 Her review captures all of it for me but it’s those intro and closing paragraphs that really hit the hardest。 History is All You Left Me is a deeply sad book with raw characters and so much emotion。 Unlike a lot of people in the reviews， I haven’t read Silvera’s debut book but I did read They Both Die in the End and absolutely fell in love with this author。 However， in this book we didn’t have all the humor paired with sadness， we just had the sadness， and confusion。 The upset。 This book will probably upset you but， ugh， it’s worth the pain it puts you through。 Now if you’ll excuse me， I need to be alone; I can feel the book hungover coming。😭 。。。more
Lizzy
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The nuances of grief in this story were so heart-breaking my written， and the way the story developed made it hard to put this one down。
Katrina Munichiello
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I really love Silvera’s writing style。 So many beautiful turns of phrase。 Love the beautiful friendships like the ways the boys respect and support Griffin’s needs related to his OCD behaviors。 My challenge with this one though was that the personalities of the boys seemed to merge — their wit， quirky interactions， etc was all very similar。 I don’t feel like Theo， Jackson and Wade differentiated themselves enough。 Sometimes they felt interchangeable。
Lio
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This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers。 To view it， click here。 × I have wanted to read this book ever since i read "they both die at the end" and i don't know why i waited so long to do it， but i am also glad i did。× it is always nice when you enjoy a book more than you thought you would， and thiswas the case with "history is all you left me"。 I know i could have finished it faster if i wasn't so busy and tired， but i am kinda glad i took my time with it， cause that way i was able to feel and undarstand it better。× i did start it back it 2018 and i knew The × I have wanted to read this book ever since i read "they both die at the end" and i don't know why i waited so long to do it， but i am also glad i did。× it is always nice when you enjoy a book more than you thought you would， and thiswas the case with "history is all you left me"。 I know i could have finished it faster if i wasn't so busy and tired， but i am kinda glad i took my time with it， cause that way i was able to feel and undarstand it better。× i did start it back it 2018 and i knew Theo is dead （plus chapter one spoils it for you）， but it still broke my heart in a new， more painful way。 the whole book promises to do that。 to break you in every way， to collect the pieces from your broken heart and to glue them back together， only to break it all over again。 and again， and again， and again。× the way Adam Silvera is exploring the grief Griff， Wade and Jackson feel was so beautiful， so。。。 i dont even have the words to describe it， but you feel it too。 you feel it as your own， your heart aches and your hands shake as you go through all the stages of this sadness。 it makes you feel as you lost your best friend， your first love。 one second you are at home reading and before you know it you are in the book。 you are Griff， you are Wade and you are Jackson。 you hurt in a way you （maybe） have never hurt before。 you relive their history with Theo。 you feel every bit of love they felt for him， you are able to connect with them， to be them。 you want to hug them， help them， stop the pain that now feels like your own。× at first i didnt really like Jackson and i thought he doesnt belong to the story， that he is one of the characters you see once or twice and then forget about。 in my head he did nothing， but steal Theo from Griff。 and maybe if they never met， Theo would still be alive， coming back to his first love。 but it all changed when i， same as Griffin， realised Jackson is the only person who can relate to Griff。 most of them all。 he also lost a boyfriend， a person he saw a future with。 he was also confused and hurt and broken。 from that moment i knew i liked him enough to be him。 to feel his own pain。 to hurt with him and for him。× okay， i know my reviews are messy and i jump from one thing to another， but bear with me， i was never good at writing them。 back to what i was saying: there were a few plot twists that blew me away （what Griff did with Jackson and Wade） as i didnt see any of it coming。 i will in no way judge him for that - you do what you gotta when your heart， your whole body is filled with so much anger， grief， sadness and all sort of emotions。× i cried。 i cried a lot， and， let me use a quote from the book to help you undarstand my feelings better:"he broke me in a way everyone should be lucky to be cracked open at least once""history is all you left me" does the same thing to you。 it breaks you， but it also makes you feel lucky to be cracked open by it。× Silvera is actually very good at this。 he rips your heart out and makes it seem like he didnt even try to do so。 he just takes your hand and walks you through his character's hearts and minds。 and you become one of them。 you are them。 and if you have read at least one of his books you will know i am right。× another thing i loved about this book is that the love， the sadness， grief and anger were really well balanced by their nerdy references， Griff's quirks and the humour。 it was also a nice break from all the cringe LGBTQAI+ books that are mainly focused on homophobia。 its full of the support of loved ones and a really good representation of gay and bi teen boys that arent shamed for loving each other。× deffo an emotional read that leaves you thinking about it days after you have finished it。 but thats how you know a book is good。 it makes you feel everything and nothing at the same time。and if you havent read this book yet， what are you doing with your life？ go read it right now and thank me later。 。。。more
Leo
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loved the story but wasnt a fan of the writing style
Jonaikel
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La neta si me dolió
Sydney
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“I’m so happy you were my first， Theo， and you were worth all the heartache。”I’m so happy I decided to give this book a read。 It was—and will continue to be so—worth all the heartache。
Kenken
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One of the best books I've ever read！ Loved the story， it was great to see characters who make bad decisions and who are not your stereotypical main character。 One of the best books I've ever read！ Loved the story， it was great to see characters who make bad decisions and who are not your stereotypical main character。 。。。more
vitória
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esperava mais。
Lauren Riess
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this was a filler because i read a wattpad book lol， anyways i will not be reading anymore wattpad cause that book was kinda dumb and i’ve moved on😋
Yo Anastasova
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all the gear no idea with this one
Karolina Wolska
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Wszystkie książki Adama Silvery， które do tej pory czytałam są tak skłaniające do refleksji na temat ludzkiej egzystencji， że zastanawiam się czy nie wymyśleć osobnej kategorii do młodzieżówek pisanych przez niego młodzieżówek。 Książka jest gorsza od More Happy than not i gorsza od naszego ostatniego dnia， stąd ocena。 Ale wziąz jest bardzo dobra。 3。5/5 ⭐
Chris Cordova
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Solid characters， full of emotion （expected when going into an Adam Silvera's book）， really nice explorations of grief。 Some really messy， but cool to watch relationship dynamics。 Solid characters， full of emotion （expected when going into an Adam Silvera's book）， really nice explorations of grief。 Some really messy， but cool to watch relationship dynamics。 。。。more
Mora
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soy llanto
aquariuser
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Scars like Griffin has got on his heart don't heal with time。 In fact time plays no role in the matter of getting over someone's death。 You just become used to the fact that the person is no longer here and accept it。 But whenever you visit the places， you see the photos， everything comes back。 Because it's always there。 The pain of losing someone。 Scars like Griffin has got on his heart don't heal with time。 In fact time plays no role in the matter of getting over someone's death。 You just become used to the fact that the person is no longer here and accept it。 But whenever you visit the places， you see the photos， everything comes back。 Because it's always there。 The pain of losing someone。 。。。more
Bella N
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This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers。 To view it， click here。 Really don't see how people think this book is amazing， the idea of it is beautiful but it was just nauseating。 I wanted to enjoy this so bad， he beginning was cute I loved all the characters。 Then griffin just turns into the nastiest person， completely turned me off and I felt no emotions for him。 Theo wasn't that great either， definitely not worse then griffin for sure。 They were both just extremely annoying。 I felt so bad for wade though， kinda wish we had more of him or even it was him telli Really don't see how people think this book is amazing， the idea of it is beautiful but it was just nauseating。 I wanted to enjoy this so bad， he beginning was cute I loved all the characters。 Then griffin just turns into the nastiest person， completely turned me off and I felt no emotions for him。 Theo wasn't that great either， definitely not worse then griffin for sure。 They were both just extremely annoying。 I felt so bad for wade though， kinda wish we had more of him or even it was him telling the story。 Jackson too， griff just using him to make himself feel better then for sex？？？ What？？ That was so nasty。 Then he beats him？？？？ What？？？？ Did Jacksons mom not notice？ Was he not covered in blood and bruises？？？ 。。。more
Amy
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This is the 2nd book I've read by Adam。 It was so good！ Exploring your life after the death of your first love。 He is an awesome author！ This is the 2nd book I've read by Adam。 It was so good！ Exploring your life after the death of your first love。 He is an awesome author！ 。。。more
scrumptious cookies
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this was devastating， not gonna lie。 i expected it to be a heartbreaking one but i did not expect myself embracing it with warm。 definitely a good read！ just took me long time to finish it because i’m afraid it would hurt me too much。 <3 this deserves more hype！
Gabriela
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Rita
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"He broke me in a way everyone should be lucky to be cracked open at least once。 I had the privilege of being destroyed by him until we found a better， real me inside of the person I was pretending to be。 I hope i make him proud。" Easily one of my fav books。 So much better that tbdate。 Didnt cry which was surprising but it was amazing "He broke me in a way everyone should be lucky to be cracked open at least once。 I had the privilege of being destroyed by him until we found a better， real me inside of the person I was pretending to be。 I hope i make him proud。" Easily one of my fav books。 So much better that tbdate。 Didnt cry which was surprising but it was amazing 。。。more
❄️May❄️
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Seeing the latest book I read I think I am liking this kind of concept where we see how different people react and mourn the death of a loved one。 It just breaks my heart but at the same time I feel warm inside like they are telling us it isn’t the end and we can learn how to live with that constant。 Any recommendations are welcome！
Kaja
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Adam Silvera must really enjoy writing sad books。 The story is about two friends-Theo and Griffin-who fall in love and one dies， while the other relives their history… because history is all he has left。 The book is past-present so you see them having fun and enjoying their time together to Griffin mourning Theo while growing closer to his boyfriend。 The plot twist at the end left me speechless… i did not expect it at all。 The quotes from the book broke my heart and when my brain fully processed Adam Silvera must really enjoy writing sad books。 The story is about two friends-Theo and Griffin-who fall in love and one dies， while the other relives their history… because history is all he has left。 The book is past-present so you see them having fun and enjoying their time together to Griffin mourning Theo while growing closer to his boyfriend。 The plot twist at the end left me speechless… i did not expect it at all。 The quotes from the book broke my heart and when my brain fully processed the book… that’s when the tears started。 “I’m so happy you are my first， Theo， and you were worth all the heartache。 I hope I wasn’t living in some of alternate universe where I wasn’t actually your first love， too。 But this universe is the only one that matters， and I have one last question for you: I didn’t get our history wrong， did I？”4。5/5⭐️ 。。。more
aalia
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Loved it
Readerpollly
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4，5⭐wczoraj po 23 popatrzyłam na nią i stwierdziłam，że jestem gotowa na pożegnanie z tą historią，samo to，że czytałam ją prawie miesiąc wydawało mi się długim okresem spowodowanym przed powrót do szkoły。ostatnie 120 stron było dla mnie okropnie bolesne，wczułam się w tę historię i rozumiałam ich ból a co najważniejsze dotarłam razem z nimi do końca
Divya
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*2。7* really disappointed。 wasn’t a bad book。 i just thought it would be a lot better
Sophia Maxfield
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I bought this book simply because the girl at the bookstore told me it made her cry。 It was hard for me to get into but once I got into it I could not put it down。 The storyline was very unique but also slightly confusing for me but that might just be because of who I am。 At certain points， I was happy， confused， shocked， heartbroken and that's what made this book so good for me。 I bought this book simply because the girl at the bookstore told me it made her cry。 It was hard for me to get into but once I got into it I could not put it down。 The storyline was very unique but also slightly confusing for me but that might just be because of who I am。 At certain points， I was happy， confused， shocked， heartbroken and that's what made this book so good for me。 。。。more
Livia
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Rep: gay MC with OCD， bi SC， Black bi SC， gay SCTW: abortion， biphobia， compulsions， death， drowning， homophobia， panic attacks---My Rating: 3 stars "History remains with the people who will appreciate it most。"Adam Silvera is praised to be the king of grief， who writes the saddest books。 I mean， he wrote one of the three books that I've ever cried in （I shed one single tear）， and my best friend herself said that this was such a beautifully sad book that she loved。 This one did not display it Rep: gay MC with OCD， bi SC， Black bi SC， gay SCTW: abortion， biphobia， compulsions， death， drowning， homophobia， panic attacks---My Rating: 3 stars "History remains with the people who will appreciate it most。"Adam Silvera is praised to be the king of grief， who writes the saddest books。 I mean， he wrote one of the three books that I've ever cried in （I shed one single tear）， and my best friend herself said that this was such a beautifully sad book that she loved。 This one did not display it for me， and it did not resonate with me as deeply。 The beginning had a lot of promise， but， unfortunately， halfway through the book， I was getting annoyed by Griffin。 Although Griffin did have a right to grieve - he lost his best friend and his first love - it was hard for me to feel as bad for him as the author may have wished。 Griffin was acting like he was the most broken person ever and that nobody would understand his pain， as if nobody else was suffering the loss of Theo。 （Like， dude， your other best friend？ Theo's parents？ Just because you boned the guy doesn't mean you're gonna miss him differently。） His narrative started getting boring and agitating， and I was just wishing for something else to happen。 I just wanted to get out of Griffin's head。 I get that he was grieving， but there was a disconnect between me and the characters， so I wasn't able to find the will to care about them。 Another thing I didn't like was the chapter lengths。 The chapters in the second half of the book were often 10+ pages long （and by page I mean page turns， so if we're counting a singular side of the paper， more like 20+） and I hated it！ It made the book feel 5x as long as it is， and it's not even 300 pages long。 A book can be 500+ pages long， and if the chapters are short enough， I can finish it in an evening， but another book with half the amount of pages but 3x the chapter sizes and it will take me a week。 Another annoying part was Griffin holding out for Theo even though he broke up with him because he was moving to California。 He kept talking about how he didn't want Theo going behind his back dating others while still being in a relationship with him， and then he did the thing that would allow that to happen with no consequences。 It was annoying， and I couldn't stand it。 I don't even think it could be filed under the "lovesick teenager" category， it was obsessive to the point where he wouldn't even be able to spend time with others in his life without mentioning Theo。I think the OCD was portrayed really well。 I wouldn't know if it's entirely accurate， as I don't have OCD nor know anybody with OCD， but the author portrayed it without demonizing it。 That part of the book was really important， in my opinion， as not many books （that I've read/heard of） portray OCD like this。 （view spoiler）[I also didn't like the whole relationship storyline with Wade。 There aren't even 300 pages in the book， and it started at page 250。 It seemed like a shitty excuse for a plot twist， and it didn't really make sense to add it in。 It didn't add anything to the story at all， and the same effect （of Griffin learning to heal， coming over his compulsions， etc） could have been achieved with them just being friends。 I get a big part of the book was Griffin making bad decisions when he's not in a good headspace， but this？ Come on。 Wasn't very fun。（hide spoiler）]The plotline was okay， it was just that by the time I was 1/2 to 3/4 in， I was waiting for the book to end。 It got very tedious to read。 I think another reason why I didn't like this as much as I wanted to was because of the hype of it all， but that seems to be a regular problem with a solid portion of the books I read （I'm looking at you， The Song of Achilles）。 This book was pretty mediocre for me， which was disappointing after I really enjoyed They Both Die at the End （the aforementioned book that made me cry a single， solitary tear）。 I'm glad that it's over， and I have another book to cross off of my seemingly never-ending TBR。 。。。more
Charlie-Rose Lee
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Pain。
Sofie
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