My Alcoholic Escape from Reality
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Summary
An emotional new diary comic from Nagata Kabi， creator of My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness。
Nagata Kabi's downward spiral is getting out of control， and she can't stop drinking to soothe the ache of reality。 After suffering from unbearable stomach pains， she goes to the hospital， where she is diagnosed with pancreatitis--and is immediately hospitalized。 A new chapter unfolds in Nagata Kabi's life， as she struggles to find her way back to reality and manga creation in the wake of her breakdown。
Nagata Kabi's downward spiral is getting out of control， and she can't stop drinking to soothe the ache of reality。 After suffering from unbearable stomach pains， she goes to the hospital， where she is diagnosed with pancreatitis--and is immediately hospitalized。 A new chapter unfolds in Nagata Kabi's life， as she struggles to find her way back to reality and manga creation in the wake of her breakdown。
Reviews
Nicolas Lontel
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De retour au manga autobiographique， malgré son désir de se lancer dans la fiction et la pression familiale， cette fois-ci， on aborde la dépression， l'alcoolisme et une immense détérioration physique qui l'envoit à l'hôpital pendant des mois。 On continue à toucher aux questions de santé mentale qui sont maintenant liées à des questions d'alcoolisme et d'hospitalisation， les questions concernant la création， la réception et la production artistique sont aussi au cœur du manga et on ne cesse de su De retour au manga autobiographique， malgré son désir de se lancer dans la fiction et la pression familiale， cette fois-ci， on aborde la dépression， l'alcoolisme et une immense détérioration physique qui l'envoit à l'hôpital pendant des mois。 On continue à toucher aux questions de santé mentale qui sont maintenant liées à des questions d'alcoolisme et d'hospitalisation， les questions concernant la création， la réception et la production artistique sont aussi au cœur du manga et on ne cesse de suivre un peu le mouvement de pendule de l'autrice quant à son désir ou non de poursuivre les mangas autobiographique et les pressions de son entourage ou encore financière。Les grandes nouveautés dans les thèmes （ou du moins， des nouvelles facettes d'anciens thèmes） sont: un certain refus de croire la douleur des femmes dans le système médical （le fameux syndrome de Yentl， mais ce n'est pas abordé de manière systématique dans le manga）， l'alcoolisme et la dépression， comment les deux se nourrissent l'un et l'autre et l'abysse dans laquelle ça peut mener， le milieu hospitalier japonais， la difficulté de création avec des problèmes de santé mentale et physique （contrairement à ce qui est assumé）， et bien davantage。 Bref， on a encore affaire à beaucoup de contenus， thèmes et sujets abordés dans une perspective de mémoire， mais aussi de communication des sentiments afin que d'autres puissent s'y retrouver （en fait foi， dans le texte， à ces moments où elle lisait d'autres auteur·es/blogs qui parlaient de sa condition） et peut-être aider dans le cheminement。 。。。more
Destiny Garcia
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Her books are always so relatable。 I don't know if its cause of our neurosis or cause we are both gay artist but yeah。 Sorry you had to go through what you have gone through but its really been a light for me these years。 Especially now that I'm at legal drinking age。 So Thank You！！！ Her books are always so relatable。 I don't know if its cause of our neurosis or cause we are both gay artist but yeah。 Sorry you had to go through what you have gone through but its really been a light for me these years。 Especially now that I'm at legal drinking age。 So Thank You！！！ 。。。more
Erin Elizabeth
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This volume of Nagata's felt a little incomplete。 Maybe because she wasn't journaling when the events were actually happening？ The ending made me really want to know what is happening to her now。 I hope she is doing better。 This volume of Nagata's felt a little incomplete。 Maybe because she wasn't journaling when the events were actually happening？ The ending made me really want to know what is happening to her now。 I hope she is doing better。 。。。more
spacenaiads
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Oh no！ Poor Nagata Kabi！ :'（ Oh no！ Poor Nagata Kabi！ :'（ 。。。more
Stephen Mataganog
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I wish I could meet Nagata Kabi and let her know she's not alone。 It also let's me know I am not alone。 I would also thank her for helping me see and understand a bit more of the disconnect between parts of myself。 I could relate to so much of her thought process。 I have to commend her on not only being brave enough to write this， but in finding a way to put all these thoughts into words。 This is a great read for anyone who fights the voices of guilt and/or self worth。 I wish I could meet Nagata Kabi and let her know she's not alone。 It also let's me know I am not alone。 I would also thank her for helping me see and understand a bit more of the disconnect between parts of myself。 I could relate to so much of her thought process。 I have to commend her on not only being brave enough to write this， but in finding a way to put all these thoughts into words。 This is a great read for anyone who fights the voices of guilt and/or self worth。 。。。more
Tina
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Oh no， I thought things were looking up for Nagata in the end of the last volume。 I probably wrote the same thing in the last review， but I hope she gets to be happy or at least content with life。
Rod Brown
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Nagata Kabi's fourth autobiographical manga finds her hospitalized for acute pancreatitis and fatty liver at just thirty years old。 This development isn't too shocking if you've followed the details of her descent into alcohol abuse in the previous volumes。 She has had mental health issues as she has dealt with her sexual identity， inability to develop a romantic relationship， and the extremely negative reaction of her parents to her tell-all comics。 She had hoped to turn to writing fiction to a Nagata Kabi's fourth autobiographical manga finds her hospitalized for acute pancreatitis and fatty liver at just thirty years old。 This development isn't too shocking if you've followed the details of her descent into alcohol abuse in the previous volumes。 She has had mental health issues as she has dealt with her sexual identity， inability to develop a romantic relationship， and the extremely negative reaction of her parents to her tell-all comics。 She had hoped to turn to writing fiction to appease them， but coping with her life-threatening condition puts her back on the road to confessional diaries。It's painful to watch her suffering and the choices she makes in the course of this memoir， but I could not turn away。 。。。more
☻ ™
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Accurate information。
Liz
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This books is an interesting follow-up to her previous 3。 Each time I read one of her books I feel like I get something different --a different experience。 With the 1st， there was a particular experience and history told。 The second two were exercises in self assessment。 This book is something in a new direction。 It's been a 3 part series with 3 different narrative and perspective styles: 1。 My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness， 2。 My Solo Exchange Diary Vol。 1 + My Solo Exchange Diary Vol。 2， This books is an interesting follow-up to her previous 3。 Each time I read one of her books I feel like I get something different --a different experience。 With the 1st， there was a particular experience and history told。 The second two were exercises in self assessment。 This book is something in a new direction。 It's been a 3 part series with 3 different narrative and perspective styles: 1。 My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness， 2。 My Solo Exchange Diary Vol。 1 + My Solo Exchange Diary Vol。 2， and 3。 now this book。 She reverts back to the narrative style of the first book， but without the time crunch aspect。 As she notes in the book， part of the trouble she had writing the book was because this book took place across less than a year whereas her other titles covered about 10 years worth of content。Rather than focusing on psychology aspects of her life， we dig a little deeper into her physical illness。 If you read the previous titles， you know that the author suffered from mental health issues and some feelings of inadequacy related to her familial relationships and growing up/being an adult。 We left after Solo 2 with a sort of hopefulness that things were getting somewhat better for the author， but there was this teetering alcoholism。 Between that publication and this one， there was a sad hospital tweet about the content of this present book。 So， the real depth of the story comes from understanding her previous struggles within the context of her physical pain and （view spoiler）[lifelong illness with constant maintenance and looming organ failure （hide spoiler）]。 It's a heavy book that begins in what seems like a non-threatening place: she has a stomach ache that doesn't go away。 The pancreatitis and fatty liver issues （not a spoiler it's on the back cover！） are coupled with her ADHD， depression， eating disorder， and imposter syndrome。 Each book puts the reader in the pit with the author， looking at the walls around you --exploring the depths of her pain。 This book finds an even deeper hole of despair to fall into， especially as the physical damage to her body settles into her mind。 If you liked the look that Wit gave an informed observer， this book takes the road of someone from the average person experience longer hospital stays。 You feel her helplessness and this internal flailing。 She blames herself， but struggles with the strength to fix it。What I like about this book is that rather than leaning on her parents to gratify her or comfort her， she looks to herself to try to fix her problems and process what is happening in her life。 The last chapter shows some real growth for her and an acceptance that writing biographical manga is not a terrible things; it's part of who she is and one of her incredible successes。 That particular growth is a show of her own fortitude because she grapples with her mother not being pleased with what she has written。 Sometimes， when we write the truth and people involved in our stories see themselves presented a certain way， it can be hard for them to support a negative perception of themselves even if what was written is true。 We can see the little finger prints of that on this book as her parents are in the story， but with very limited on page time。 She has found the way to balance sharing her truth with respecting the privacy of those around her。 。。。more
Sascha
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3。5？ I think it can be hard as a physically disabled person who has been disabled their whole life to read about someone older just starting to deal with health problems。 I wish this had dug a little deeper in some areas， but I understand exposing even more of oneself to the world is difficult。I liked that it showed the medical world is often confusing and gives conflicting advice that can lead to bad outcomes。 I think this could be a tough read for anyone with a eating disorder， but a lot of di 3。5？ I think it can be hard as a physically disabled person who has been disabled their whole life to read about someone older just starting to deal with health problems。 I wish this had dug a little deeper in some areas， but I understand exposing even more of oneself to the world is difficult。I liked that it showed the medical world is often confusing and gives conflicting advice that can lead to bad outcomes。 I think this could be a tough read for anyone with a eating disorder， but a lot of disabled people can identify with confusing restricted diets that don't always help as much as doctors claim they should。 I hope for all the best for Nagata Kabi in her chronic illness journey and that she continues to make engaging and fun manga。 。。。more
Axel
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Úff hvað ég þurfti á því að halda að vita um afdrif Nagata eftir síðustu bók。 Maður lifandi！Strúktúrlega sterkasta bókin og tónninn annar en áður。 Hika örlítið við að segja þetta innlegg það besta frá henni en klárlega jafningi fyrstu bókarinnar og skyldi mig eftir í skapi sem ég bjóst ekki við eftir hinar þrjár。 Algjör snilld og svo gott að sjá sjálfsmeðvitund hennar verða skarpari og heilbrigðari。
Briar Page
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Just as good as MY LESBIAN EXPERIENCE WITH LONELINESS， with （in my opinion） slightly more confident and sophisticated artwork。 I really hope Nagata is eventually able to have a healthier relationship with alcohol （it's hard， I get it！） ， and doesn't suffer a relapse of pancreatitis。 Just as good as MY LESBIAN EXPERIENCE WITH LONELINESS， with （in my opinion） slightly more confident and sophisticated artwork。 I really hope Nagata is eventually able to have a healthier relationship with alcohol （it's hard， I get it！） ， and doesn't suffer a relapse of pancreatitis。 。。。more
Sarah
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Every manga by Kabi-san is a msterpiece （in my humble opinion）。 I look forward to every biographic piece because she is so brutally honest。 I must admit I found this one more difficult to read because I am a bit squeamish when it comes to needles and talking about physical illness， but that didn't stop me breezing through the story again！ I do hope， though， that next time Kabi-san has something to draw about its not about love and loneliness。 Maybe just about love。 I wish her all the love and he Every manga by Kabi-san is a msterpiece （in my humble opinion）。 I look forward to every biographic piece because she is so brutally honest。 I must admit I found this one more difficult to read because I am a bit squeamish when it comes to needles and talking about physical illness， but that didn't stop me breezing through the story again！ I do hope， though， that next time Kabi-san has something to draw about its not about love and loneliness。 Maybe just about love。 I wish her all the love and health and a full life 💕 。。。more
Jessica Walsh
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Another great manga from Nagata Kabi。 While it mentions alcohol it also deals with themes of addiction and self care。 I’m always eager to read her next volume and always want to give her the biggest of hugs for sharing something so painful and personal。
sunkissedmiranda
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5/5 stars。 RTC！ But another great one from Nagata！
Kim
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Oh where to begin。 The day before launch I was online checking all retailers。 I was on multiple email list and made multiple pre-orders。 Whenever a website got it into their stock I added it to my cart and checked out only to get an email telling me that they had sold out！！！ This lead my to take the train to the only store over two hours away that had it in store。 Called them to put a copy aside for me the day before my trip。 Now we're here and I'm telling you to go and support my favorite artis Oh where to begin。 The day before launch I was online checking all retailers。 I was on multiple email list and made multiple pre-orders。 Whenever a website got it into their stock I added it to my cart and checked out only to get an email telling me that they had sold out！！！ This lead my to take the train to the only store over two hours away that had it in store。 Called them to put a copy aside for me the day before my trip。 Now we're here and I'm telling you to go and support my favorite artist！ The store was educational， emotional， and inspiring。 I don't know how to explain it without spoilers but be sure I will re-read this and getting a second copy for the shelf！ 。。。more
The Georgia Book Belle
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I had to think about this for awhile before I rated it。 I love all of their books。 Yes， I agree that the mangaka puts herself in many of these situations but many of us do the same。 It felt that this book was missing something and I think it was the deep reflection the other books provided。 Over all still really good。 Don’t read if you are squeamish。
Cordelia
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I want this author keep doing her memories manga。 I want her to be alive。
D
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چون در مورد اعتیاد به الکل و مشکلات پانکراس و کبد نویسنده بود کمتر تونستم باهاش ارتباط برقرار کنم。 منتظر جلد بعدیشم！
Fenriz Angelo
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My alcoholic escape from reality was my most anticipated manga this year！I didn't know what to expect in this new memoir so it was a surprise to read that Nagata didn't plan to write another diary comic in the first place after the fallout of her past work and the guilt she felt for hurting her family by being completely honest with their portrayal at that time。 Considering how popular her work became in Japan and internationally， that feel is understandable。 So this piece lost many details and My alcoholic escape from reality was my most anticipated manga this year！I didn't know what to expect in this new memoir so it was a surprise to read that Nagata didn't plan to write another diary comic in the first place after the fallout of her past work and the guilt she felt for hurting her family by being completely honest with their portrayal at that time。 Considering how popular her work became in Japan and internationally， that feel is understandable。 So this piece lost many details and feels shorter than her previous works because it's more a recount of the time she spent in the hospital dealing with pancreatitis， how she struggled to create different works of fiction， experienced an artblock for the first time， and ended up with the unbearable itch to create another memoir yet again。 Despite the serious topic of suffering pancreatitis and a liver disease， she portrayed that journey in a way that make the reader laugh at times。 Though it baffles me to imagine the amount of alcohol she drank for 3 years to the point of developing those diseases and how since in Japan there's no alcohol culture， alcoholism apparently is not an issue tackled by psychologists。 Nagata's deeply personal work always hits home in some aspects， this one isn't the exception。 Her self-reflection about what's the core of her drive to draw and create something was something i understood as a creative person myself who has spent years denying myself from creating certain stories because I think they'll be met with more backlash than positivity。 Also her bouts of depression and suicide idealization is something i know too well。In resume， My alcoholic scape from reality is another fantastic work by Nagata Kabi， i was afraid it wouldn't end on a positive note but thankfully it did！， and I'm glad she's doing another diary manga and it's got licensed by Seven Seas。**I watched her interview in the Toronto Comic Arts Festival where she mentioned the orange tone for this manga was completely accidental on the publisher's side （the editor though it was orange instead of the usual pink） and she didn't correct them haha， it suits the story tbh。** 。。。more
Rachel Best
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I end every book hoping for the best for the author。
Elizabeth
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I love Kabi Nagata so muuuuch。
Erica
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I had to completely reevaluate my thoughts on this volume when she casually mentions that alcoholism just culturally isn't a "thing" in Japanese culture？？ This makes me extremely nervous for her recovery， （and explains the bizarreness of her treatment not addressing any underlying issues。 Talk about throwing a bandaid on a broken arm。） Still， I found her fascinating as always and hope she manages to embrace her dual desires for memoir and fiction。 Regardless， I'll be looking out for more。 I had to completely reevaluate my thoughts on this volume when she casually mentions that alcoholism just culturally isn't a "thing" in Japanese culture？？ This makes me extremely nervous for her recovery， （and explains the bizarreness of her treatment not addressing any underlying issues。 Talk about throwing a bandaid on a broken arm。） Still， I found her fascinating as always and hope she manages to embrace her dual desires for memoir and fiction。 Regardless， I'll be looking out for more。 。。。more
Gaz Watson
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I love Kabi Nagatas work， but at the end of each of her books I’m left worrying about her。 I hope she’s ok。
Panda
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Aww this ended so filled with hope I can’t wait to read whatever she writes next！
Heidee Howard
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TW: Alcoholism， depression， thoughts of suicide， and probably more It's strange to feel emotionally invested in the story of a stranger on the opposite side of the planet， but Nagata reaches to every part of you that has experienced loneliness and insecurity and says "me too。"This is easily the best volume in her autobio series since My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness。 While the Solo Exchange diaries felt a little disjointed， forced， and frankly， heartbreaking， Alcoholic Escape feels like the TW: Alcoholism， depression， thoughts of suicide， and probably more It's strange to feel emotionally invested in the story of a stranger on the opposite side of the planet， but Nagata reaches to every part of you that has experienced loneliness and insecurity and says "me too。"This is easily the best volume in her autobio series since My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness。 While the Solo Exchange diaries felt a little disjointed， forced， and frankly， heartbreaking， Alcoholic Escape feels like the start to a new phase。 The change in color scheme from pink to orange perfectly reflects this transition from innocence to consequence。 It's important to have explorations of addiction and depression that show the honest struggles， and Nagata is incredible for sharing her ongoing story。 。。。more
Bek MoonyReadsByStarlight
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3。75/5 StarsThis was a really interesting addition to the memoir series。 Just as My Solo Exchange Diary was different pacing than My Lesbian Experience with Lonliness， this volume is different still。 It is more of an immediate reflection of a year， not as small as diary entries in My Solo Exchange Diary and not as large of a focus as My Lesbian Experience with Lonliness。 This difference is part of what makes this series so unique。 It's not just telling you about the author's experience， but you' 3。75/5 StarsThis was a really interesting addition to the memoir series。 Just as My Solo Exchange Diary was different pacing than My Lesbian Experience with Lonliness， this volume is different still。 It is more of an immediate reflection of a year， not as small as diary entries in My Solo Exchange Diary and not as large of a focus as My Lesbian Experience with Lonliness。 This difference is part of what makes this series so unique。 It's not just telling you about the author's experience， but you're seeing the change in approaches within the work itself。In My Solo Exchange Diary Vol 2， one of the things she covered was the experience of writing memoir and even some of the fallout。 In this volume， you see this more as her feelings around it shift。 There's also a clear change in how she handles discussing interpersonal elements and discusses how it had caused issues after her other memoirs had been published。 So this volume focuses much on her internal experience of hospitalization and recovery。Over all， this whole series has been a really interesting look into her life， issues of mental health， and what it means to be vulnerable and seek intimacy。 How do we seek comfort in a way that is healthy and productive？ This series doesn't serve to answer this -- it is very honest in it's open endings。 。。。more
DrCalvin
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This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers。 To view it， click here。 Oooffff， this was another heavy read。 Kabi Nagata continues to show her life in all its unflattering glory， with powerful but at times painful to read depictions of mental illness， alcoholism and ADHD。 Though there is no commentary towards the society around her， I continue to be both baffled and upset at how certain things seem to be treated in Japan - the treatment of her alcohol-induced pancreatitis for instance not appearing to include any therapy while she is an inpatient in the hospital。Th Oooffff， this was another heavy read。 Kabi Nagata continues to show her life in all its unflattering glory， with powerful but at times painful to read depictions of mental illness， alcoholism and ADHD。 Though there is no commentary towards the society around her， I continue to be both baffled and upset at how certain things seem to be treated in Japan - the treatment of her alcohol-induced pancreatitis for instance not appearing to include any therapy while she is an inpatient in the hospital。The drawings remain in Nagata's naivist and simple style， with a shift from pink to orange in the three-color palette， and still manage to make me shudder from intensity， giggle and follow even chaotic pages easily。 There are also moments of intertextual comments， when she borrows a famous panel from another manga， which works outstandingly - perhaps because both are so different from her own style？ I do feel this volume is a better narrative than My Solo Exchange Diary， perhaps because it too （like her first book） was written at least partially in retrospect; by ordering her memories， the structure appears clearer。 Trigger warnings for a lot of things: suicidal thoughts， alcohol abusace， self-harm， eating disorders， anxiety etc。 Most of all， I hope that I can some day read a volume from this author - whether a story-manga or further autobiography - created when she has had a period of mental wellbeing。 。。。more
tatterpunk
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FIVE STARS: I look forward to re-reading this。When she "left" us at the end of My Solo Exchange Diary Vol。 2， Kabi was trying to turn her talents to fiction manga in order to give herself the emotional/mental space needed after a life lived so openly and publicly。 （Not to mention， in order to repair her relationship with her family。） My Alcoholic Escape From Reality is the follow-up， in which Kabi admits to a severe health crisis that made her question her coping mechanisms， what lies beneath th FIVE STARS: I look forward to re-reading this。When she "left" us at the end of My Solo Exchange Diary Vol。 2， Kabi was trying to turn her talents to fiction manga in order to give herself the emotional/mental space needed after a life lived so openly and publicly。 （Not to mention， in order to repair her relationship with her family。） My Alcoholic Escape From Reality is the follow-up， in which Kabi admits to a severe health crisis that made her question her coping mechanisms， what lies beneath them， and whether or not the artists she imagines herself becoming is in conflict with the artist she currently is。 Kabi Nagata feels like a friend， at this point。 Even though this book is not very "eventful，" I love reading her books -- they feel like long letters from a pen pal。 The details are maybe mundane， even painful to hear， but they carry the sense of someone I care about。 Someone whose story is unlike my own in a lot of ways， and yet is so honest about aspects of our basic compatibility （queerness， artistic struggles， mental and physical health struggles， the basic existential pain of personhood） that even a story filled with simple details feels like it speaks to very hungry corners of my heart。 And so I'm always eager for more。 Plus， while I loved the "ending" she gave us with My Solo Exchange Diary Vol。 2， this one is even better。 I look forward to the next time I hear from you， Kabi Nagata。 Until then: sending my love。 。。。more
tatsumi
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