I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki
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Summary
Baek Se-Hee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her--what to call it？--depression？ She feels persistently low， anxious， endlessly self-doubting， but also highly judgemental of others。 She hides her feelings well at work and with friends， adept at performing the calmness， even ease， her lifestyle demands。 The effort is exhausting and overwhelming and keeps her from forming deep relationships。 This can't be normal。 But if she's so hopeless， why can she always summon a yen for her favourite street food， the hot， spicy rice cake， tteokbokki？ Is this just what life is like？ Recording her dialogues with her psychiatrist over a 12-week period， Baek begins to disentangle the feedback loops， knee-jerk reactions， and harmful behaviours that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse。
Reviews
Q。 Neko
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Why are we so bad at being honest about our feelings？art is about moving hearts and minds。‘These were all behaviours you had no awareness of until recently， and to make the realisation that you always make the same choices is， in itself， proof you’re getting better。’
Salma
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i really liked the author's reflections at the end。 very fascinating train of thoughts。 i want more of that。 i really liked the author's reflections at the end。 very fascinating train of thoughts。 i want more of that。 。。。more
Han
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Loved the beginning chapters of this because I could relate well with the author but lost interest in the middle chapters since I couldn’t relate anymore。 I have no idea what those postscripts are meant to do for the book but I did enjoy some of them。 Some of the advise given by the therapist feels very questionable but who am I to judge。。
Cynthia
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I want to eat tteokbokki too。 This book was a self-help book and memoir wrapped up in one， and it was an intimate and candid look into the author's struggle with dysthymia。 Just from the topic and structure alone （conversations with her psychiatrist）， I thought I would eat this up and love this book。 Unfortunately， there's just something missing for me。 I know therapy is not a linear progression。 Sometimes we just keep falling into the same patterns， going around in circles， but I felt like the I want to eat tteokbokki too。 This book was a self-help book and memoir wrapped up in one， and it was an intimate and candid look into the author's struggle with dysthymia。 Just from the topic and structure alone （conversations with her psychiatrist）， I thought I would eat this up and love this book。 Unfortunately， there's just something missing for me。 I know therapy is not a linear progression。 Sometimes we just keep falling into the same patterns， going around in circles， but I felt like the sessions were becoming repetitive in the latter half of the book。 I really loved the beginning， and I found it insightful when the therapist would give recommendations or little epiphany moments for the author， but later on， it felt like I was listening to the same conversation over and over。 It also feels like the psychiatrist didn't give the best advice at times。 Simply telling someone to think differently or not to do something won't actually work every time。 But maybe I'm asking too much and projecting my own issues that I want to fix in this book。 I'm glad the author feels enlightened and more comfortable after going to these sessions， but I personally did not gain as much insight as I wanted from this book。 The epilogue and ending postscripts did salvage the sessions a bit， but not enough for me to really feel comforted or have an "ah-hah" moment。 Als0， I thought tteokbokki was going to have a bigger role in this and I was a bit disappointed when she did not once mention it in the main book。 A bit sad。 A bit disappointed。 But this just means I need to go eat it now， so I don't mope around in hunger。 。。。more
Sofia
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"I am someone who is completely unique in this world， someone I need to take care of for the rest of my life， and therefore someone I need to help take each step forward， warmly and patiently， to allow to rest on some days and to encourage on others – I believe that the more I look into this strange being， myself， the more routes I will find to happiness。" "I am someone who is completely unique in this world， someone I need to take care of for the rest of my life， and therefore someone I need to help take each step forward， warmly and patiently， to allow to rest on some days and to encourage on others – I believe that the more I look into this strange being， myself， the more routes I will find to happiness。" 。。。more
Maureen
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i feel like i learned a lot despite it being very short 🫶 my namjoon has yet to recommend me a bad book 👫🏻👩🏻❤️👨🏻💜
Manasa
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Probably the first writer I've ever seen write about dysthymia， and for that reason alone， I found this memoir oh-so-relatable。 Baek Se-hee recorded her therapy sessions and transcribed select conversations to document her inner grapplings with mental illness。 For me， this was valuable since I'm always interested in how others process their emotions， especially when we share so much in common。 I want to meet her！！ One thing I felt was missing was the concept of time。 None of the conversations we Probably the first writer I've ever seen write about dysthymia， and for that reason alone， I found this memoir oh-so-relatable。 Baek Se-hee recorded her therapy sessions and transcribed select conversations to document her inner grapplings with mental illness。 For me， this was valuable since I'm always interested in how others process their emotions， especially when we share so much in common。 I want to meet her！！ One thing I felt was missing was the concept of time。 None of the conversations were labeled with dates， which made it impossible to know how long a period the book encompassed and how much time elapsed between each "how have you been？" In fact， only through her bio on the back flap did I learn how the author was in treatment for 10 years。 As written， readers may not realize how extensive the work of therapy can be， and how these insights are hard-won not overnight。 But if intentional， I'll admit the lack of dates allowed me to simply focus on the author's insights and view this memoir as a glimpse of her process， instead of the entirety。 It doesn't need to be wrapped up neatly because life and healing rarely is。"I want to love and be loved。 I want to find a way where I don't hurt myself。 I want to live a life where I say things are good more than things are bad。 I want to keep failing and discovering new and better directions。 I want to enjoy the tides of feeling in me as the rhythms of life。 I want to be the kind of person who can walk inside the vast darkness and find the one fragment of sunlight I can linger in for a long time。 Some day， I will。" 。。。more
Karen
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I am struggling to pinpoint why I like this book - the language is quite dry and slightly stilted， and while I found the topic interesting， I also found it hard to concentrate on the text。 There was also very little sense of progression or a story structure - the text did suggest a gradual improvement in the author's mental health but it was very subtle。 It would have helped to know beforehand that the author went on to have about 10 years of therapy altogether。 However， I am glad this book exis I am struggling to pinpoint why I like this book - the language is quite dry and slightly stilted， and while I found the topic interesting， I also found it hard to concentrate on the text。 There was also very little sense of progression or a story structure - the text did suggest a gradual improvement in the author's mental health but it was very subtle。 It would have helped to know beforehand that the author went on to have about 10 years of therapy altogether。 However， I am glad this book exists， and admire the author for making herself vulnerable by publishing what are essentially transcripts from her therapy sessions。 There are candid admissions about her relationships， as well as brutal truths about some Korean social norms （such as their unhealthy standards for female beauty）。 She had said that she shared her own story so that others in a similar situation don't feel so alone， and I think， like many others drawn to her story， that she has definitely succeeded on that front。 。。。more
Tamar Haut
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“We often judge the whole by a single moment。” I was really intrigued and fascinated by this book， especially in the first half， because I relate to what the author was going through。 However， during the second half of the book， the therapy sessions were a bit repetitive。 I couldn’t find as much depth as the first half and had to encourage myself to read。 （I’m the type of person who has to read until the end）。 However， many of the conversations between the psychiatrist were monumental and I real “We often judge the whole by a single moment。” I was really intrigued and fascinated by this book， especially in the first half， because I relate to what the author was going through。 However， during the second half of the book， the therapy sessions were a bit repetitive。 I couldn’t find as much depth as the first half and had to encourage myself to read。 （I’m the type of person who has to read until the end）。 However， many of the conversations between the psychiatrist were monumental and I really enjoyed reading them。 As someone who goes through some similar experiences， such as anxiety a bit of depression， and low self-esteem， I think the quote mentioned above is really fantastic， because who doesn’t judge something just from a single moment？ When a friend and I get into an argument about something and he/she doesn’t talk me for days。 I think， “do they hate me？ Do they not want to be friends anymore？” No， because she/he might need space。 So yes， there are times when I judge something just for a single moment， but I might just be overthinking。 Anyway， great book。 I gave it three stars because of the repetitiveness and lack of depth， but it is a good book。 So I do highly recommend。 （For those who like this genre）。 。。。more
Amelia
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a series of transcripts from the author's therapy sessions dealing with insecurity and low self esteem。 the main part of the book was a bit lack luster but I really enjoyed the short essay collection at the end。 I think i overhyped it in my head since I've been wanting to read it for awhile but it was only recently translated。 a series of transcripts from the author's therapy sessions dealing with insecurity and low self esteem。 the main part of the book was a bit lack luster but I really enjoyed the short essay collection at the end。 I think i overhyped it in my head since I've been wanting to read it for awhile but it was only recently translated。 。。。more
javi
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i don't want to rate this bc i rlly feel for baek se-hee and commend her for being so open about her experience going to therapy 。。。 but i didn't like the format and how surface-level the conversations with her therapist were。 some of the things the therapist said was like 。。。 what 。。。 i don't want to rate this bc i rlly feel for baek se-hee and commend her for being so open about her experience going to therapy 。。。 but i didn't like the format and how surface-level the conversations with her therapist were。 some of the things the therapist said was like 。。。 what 。。。 。。。more
Gsus
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This review is long overdue。 Got really busy。 I was really looking forward to writing my thoughts on this book， but school & life just got in the way， and now the thoughts have fleeted and left。 Even now， as I'm typing this， I am sleepy。 But then， yea， I didn’t really expect to like this book。 I just chose to read it randomly， on a random day。 It’s so short！ which made me love it even more！ Although， it did take me about a week to finish （due to my student schedule） Trying to catch up wit my gra This review is long overdue。 Got really busy。 I was really looking forward to writing my thoughts on this book， but school & life just got in the way， and now the thoughts have fleeted and left。 Even now， as I'm typing this， I am sleepy。 But then， yea， I didn’t really expect to like this book。 I just chose to read it randomly， on a random day。 It’s so short！ which made me love it even more！ Although， it did take me about a week to finish （due to my student schedule） Trying to catch up wit my grades。 I am so so so burnt out。 We only have Sundays as rest days， and even then， you feel guilty for resting because there are so many tests to study for and requirements to pass。 I want to die but maybe the afterlife is even more boring err terrible。But yea， for some reason， despite the deep resonance I feel with the author， there's something about the writing that just didn’t fall through for me。 It was good， easy， and honest。 But it lacks that poetic kick for me。 Maybe it’s the translation？ I still enjoyed it though。I feel like I read this book at the time I needed it the most。 It’s so raw and honest， too vulnerable。 The author describes and divulges feelings and thoughts here that I don’t think I would ever be able to let out of my subconsciousness。 I feel seen by her and understood。 I find it so beautiful， humans， humanity。 How we grow up in different parts of the world， were immersed in different cultures and backgrounds， and still feel the same things， and think the same thoughts。 I especially resoundingly resonated with this quote "I like to be by myself a lot。 But only under one condition: I must have someone who loves me。 Someone who must want to know how I am every day for me to be happy alone" ！！！！ ugh ！！！ it's so good because SAME！Despite the loneliness， I do like my company most times。 I have a lot of hobbies， I almost never get bored。 Emptiness yes， I feel， but bored I seldom am。 Maybe it's because I'm starting to get busy now。 In high school， we were at school from 7:30 am to 5:00 pm。 Even when classes ended earlier， if it wasn't 5 pm-- we couldn't go out of school， which yes ik！！ it's bullshit。 Das false imprisonment good ma'ams & sirs。 But yea， I remember how I loved going home。 How that thought kept me through the long boring hours of school （note just how much I hate boredom & school）。 I loved watching movies， loved reading。 I loved spending time on the vast internet。 I loved the quiet。 And then freshman year of college （my first first year） I didn't really hang out with my blockmates， despite my being good friends with them， despite being invited because socializing overwhelmed me， and I much rather spent my time alone in my dorm， netflixing and reading。 I've realized I like boring things， which made my life uneventful。 Which also is a problem because I have serious FOMO。 But then yea， this all changed when the pandemic happened。 I just felt so isolated。 It was too much me-time I think。 I missed human interactions。 It made me realize how short time is， and how the future no matter how we build and envision it， is outside of our control。 I'm not even really sure if it's the pandemic， or my being in my 20s， but I feel so lost， and so lonely。 Going back to the quote， In high school I never pursued romantic relationships。 I had none of the innocent， pure form of love。 No one really liked me that much （w/c I think had profound effects of my self esteem and meager dating life） But then， I also never liked anyone enough。 I was too absorbed in the world fiction and my friends。 I was content with them， never really needed or wanted anyone or anything else。 "I must have someone who loves me。 Someone who must want to know how I am every day for me to be happy alone" Growing up， I have always felt loved， and so I never sought for it at places outside of home。 I was loved， and I felt loved。 But then as I am entering my 20s， I feel this immense loneliness that comes with moving away from home， an emptiness I try to fill with social media and dating apps， which I never in my wildest dreams thought I would resort to。 But here I am now， Looking for validation outside of myself because I couldn't find it in me。 。。。more
Alvina
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3。5 stars It feels wrong to judge this because it clearly is an honest and brave catharsis of the time author spent in therapy。 Still， for the sake of review， I'll phrase my thoughts。 The psychiatrist-author talks felt repetitive， dry and almost on the nose。 I didn't think she was getting the kind of help she needed but again what do I know about therapy？I love the second half of the book starting from the epilogue and the end notes at the end of every chapter。 They felt more natural and less on 3。5 stars It feels wrong to judge this because it clearly is an honest and brave catharsis of the time author spent in therapy。 Still， for the sake of review， I'll phrase my thoughts。 The psychiatrist-author talks felt repetitive， dry and almost on the nose。 I didn't think she was getting the kind of help she needed but again what do I know about therapy？I love the second half of the book starting from the epilogue and the end notes at the end of every chapter。 They felt more natural and less on the nose。 I guess， this is because I've never had the stomach for self-help books。 In the end， I found this book to be relatable， helpful and sometimes annoying。 Forgive my harshness。P。S: the writing in the last 50 pages is stunning especially the metaphors。 。。。more
David
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Maybe it just plays better in Korea with its BTS recommendation and possibly different norms around therapy。 Here in the West being able to take part in therapy is more a point of class distinction， while social media has normalized the open and frank discussion around mental illness to the point people are falsely laying claim to neurodivergent traits for a strange sense of clout。 Still there is the thrill of eavesdropping on a therapist / client conversation and， at least for me， repeated feel Maybe it just plays better in Korea with its BTS recommendation and possibly different norms around therapy。 Here in the West being able to take part in therapy is more a point of class distinction， while social media has normalized the open and frank discussion around mental illness to the point people are falsely laying claim to neurodivergent traits for a strange sense of clout。 Still there is the thrill of eavesdropping on a therapist / client conversation and， at least for me， repeated feelings of recognition。 But then again the self-loathing， tendency to extremes， body dysmorphia， insecurity， and general melancholic malaise discussed here — well isn't that just the current resting state of just about everyone in our social media saturated world？ Maybe it can provide some sense of relief to those suffering from mild depression， or at least a sense of being seen。 That is huge and I don't want to dismiss the value others may find。 Maybe I'm oblivious， I'm the dog， drinking coffee， being engulfed in flames exclaiming "This is fine" but the book just didn't work for me。 。。。more
M （RAIN CITY READS）
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I was fascinated by this book when I first found out about it。 It's a simple concept - a young woman who is suffering from a non-specific， pervasive malaise seeks help from a therapist and records her sessions。 She starts off uncertain about many things - why she feels how she does， how others see her， whether there's anything wrong with her， and if so， what？ The first part of the book is a series of transcripts of Baek Se-Hee's therapy sessions， without outside commentary or context。 There are I was fascinated by this book when I first found out about it。 It's a simple concept - a young woman who is suffering from a non-specific， pervasive malaise seeks help from a therapist and records her sessions。 She starts off uncertain about many things - why she feels how she does， how others see her， whether there's anything wrong with her， and if so， what？ The first part of the book is a series of transcripts of Baek Se-Hee's therapy sessions， without outside commentary or context。 There are both pros and cons to this approach。 It's very interesting to know only what is shared with the therapist and to have to try to interpret what is really happening。 Is she sharing the whole story？ Are her reactions genuine？ Will she follow through after the sessions？ We don't know the answers to these questions for sure， and are left some room for interpretation。 But it can also be a bit frustrating to read - because there's no internal narrative， sometimes the prose feels a bit stiff or abrupt。 I also found myself wishing for a bit more depth to some of the topics that were discussed - I wanted to know how Se-Hee actually felt， not just what she said out loud。 There are a couple of sections at the end of the book - an epilogue in which the author shares some of her more personal reflections on where she is now， what she's still struggling with， and what has helped。 We also hear from her therapist， who discusses the way the book has impacted her and how she felt about having her professional life put out in public。I think this is an important book， particularly for young women in a culture like this one （from what very， very little I know） that can place unique pressures on young women and girls。 I can see many readers identifying with the conflicts and emotions Se-Hee describes， particularly her difficulty in expressing her genuine feelings to those around her and her need to be seen as successful and likeable。 I also loved that it addresses a less dramatic version of depression than is often seen， and shares clinical terms and explanations for some of her symptoms。This book had so much going for it， but I did find myself having some issues with it。 I had trouble feeling emotionally connected to Se-Hee， I think in large part because of the lack of internal narrative and the reliance completely on these therapy transcripts right up until the end。 It also didn't have the humour I expected from the title - I thought there'd be a bit of tongue-in-cheek or sarcastic references to the contradictions that can be found in depression， but there wasn't really any of that here。Some of this was also me。 II'm through the part of my life where I was tied up with worrying how I looked， how others perceived me， whether my relationships were reciprocal， whether I'd said the wrong thing。 I remember it， and it was excruciating at times， but it's not my mental landscape anymore。 This is why I think it will appeal more to younger audiences - perhaps women in their 20s who are still struggling with their self-image and sense of identity， and who need to know they're not the only ones。 It is a very difficult journey， and one I am glad to be mostly through with， frankly！ I also felt like some of the elements that left me feeling distanced were cultural。 Some of the worries and pressures that are described don't feel quite how I remember them， and I think some of that could be because South Korean culture places a lot of pressure on young women to be pretty， polite and to conform to accepted gender roles。 Of course I could be wrong on some of my interpretations here - I have no experience of Korean culture other than what I've read in books - so this is just a guess。I can see why this book has been getting so much buzz。 It is unlike any other mental health memoir I've read in the past， and it brings up a lot of intriguing and important discussions。 I wish I had felt a stronger connection to it， but I am glad that I read it， and I would definitely recommend it to those who are in a similar place in their own lives， and who are perhaps struggling to find solid ground and a sense of self and purpose。 I commend Baek Se-Hee for sharing her experiences and her （very） personal insights。 Read my full review here。 。。。more
Serami Ham
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“The only way for me to become a better person is to go my way little by little， as tedious as that can be。 To delay my judgement， to not force myself， to accept the countless judgements and emotions that pass through me。 Criticising myself isn't going to make me a cleverer person suddenly。I think I am learning how to accept life as it is。Accepting your burdens and putting them down isn't an occasional posture; it's something you need to practise for the rest of your life。 To see the pathetic li “The only way for me to become a better person is to go my way little by little， as tedious as that can be。 To delay my judgement， to not force myself， to accept the countless judgements and emotions that pass through me。 Criticising myself isn't going to make me a cleverer person suddenly。I think I am learning how to accept life as it is。Accepting your burdens and putting them down isn't an occasional posture; it's something you need to practise for the rest of your life。 To see the pathetic little me as I am， but also to see that the pathetic other person I am relating to is trying their best。 Instead of ruthlessly judging others the way I judge myself or trying to bend others to fit my rules。I've got to accept that everyone has a flaw or two， and first and foremost， see myself as I am first。 I must stop expecting myself to be perfect。 The best I can do is to learn or realise something new every day。” 。。。more
Jin Rhee
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I expected this book to be a bit different， but ultimately， we find ourselves in the therapy transcripts of Baek Sehee， a successful social media director at a publishing house。 Instead of retrospectively looking at her life with depression， we hear her most intimate thoughts and feelings in dialogues with her psychiatrist - almost up to a point where you feel a little bit uncomfortable and somewhat nosy to be a part of it。 Even though the book is described as self-help and memoir， it’s neither。 I expected this book to be a bit different， but ultimately， we find ourselves in the therapy transcripts of Baek Sehee， a successful social media director at a publishing house。 Instead of retrospectively looking at her life with depression， we hear her most intimate thoughts and feelings in dialogues with her psychiatrist - almost up to a point where you feel a little bit uncomfortable and somewhat nosy to be a part of it。 Even though the book is described as self-help and memoir， it’s neither。 The only things you’ll get from this book are the raw and intimate conversations the author shares。 I did find the book interesting， but wished for a different narrative style。 。。。more
v
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3。5/5; i think the most glaring problem with this book is how disorganised it is。 the structure is all over the place and i have no idea what kind of journey i'm supposed to be on。 also some passages that appear after the therapy conversations are over sound like the author is still stuck at the same place they were before therapy。 plus when you think about it， majority of the book is just straight up recorded conversations and honestly？ comes off as a little lazy because of the copy-and-paste v 3。5/5; i think the most glaring problem with this book is how disorganised it is。 the structure is all over the place and i have no idea what kind of journey i'm supposed to be on。 also some passages that appear after the therapy conversations are over sound like the author is still stuck at the same place they were before therapy。 plus when you think about it， majority of the book is just straight up recorded conversations and honestly？ comes off as a little lazy because of the copy-and-paste vibes。however， this book made my issues feel seen in the best way possible。 like a friend called out everything wrong with me but extremely tactfully。 in relation to the author's problems surrounding relationships and ego， on a very personal level i heavily related。 i must say， i don't feel like i learnt what i can do about it， but it was nice seeing everything i was unhappy about articulated into actual words on the page。thus， my reading experience for this book was highly personal and subjective， which is why i'm more generous with the score。 （otherwise this would more likely be a 2*） if you know me personally and want to look inside my own brain， then sure read this。 otherwise， i'm not sure how likely you are to relate to the author's struggles; combined with the horrendous structure， i'd suggest you skip this one。 。。。more
Aubree
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very rich writing and subject matter despite only being 190 pages！！ was a super short but memorable read！ definitely a new comfort read :D
Nisrine
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« Because the human heart， even when it wants to die， quite often wants at the same time to eat some tteokbokki， too。 »Un bon livre sur les troubles dépressifs， et anxieux。 L’autrice nous partage ses pensées les plus profondes ainsi que son mal-être au cours d’une compilation de dialogues entre elle-même et sa psychiatre。 Nous la voyons évoluer， au fil du roman， essayant de battre durement sa dysthymie。 Le récit nous pousse à comprendre les mécanismes de la dépression， mais aussi de voir la mala « Because the human heart， even when it wants to die， quite often wants at the same time to eat some tteokbokki， too。 »Un bon livre sur les troubles dépressifs， et anxieux。 L’autrice nous partage ses pensées les plus profondes ainsi que son mal-être au cours d’une compilation de dialogues entre elle-même et sa psychiatre。 Nous la voyons évoluer， au fil du roman， essayant de battre durement sa dysthymie。 Le récit nous pousse à comprendre les mécanismes de la dépression， mais aussi de voir la maladie d’un autre regard。 。。。more
tamiroquai
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Guter Start， gute Mitte， meh Ende
Sophie Cathérine
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This book is tedious， predictable and unnecessary to read， but I've read worse， so here are two stars for this one。 This book is tedious， predictable and unnecessary to read， but I've read worse， so here are two stars for this one。 。。。more
Deja
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3。5
Dominique
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I thoroughly enjoyed this book。 As someone who very often feels the same as the author， it benefitted me to read her therapy notes and views on daily lifeI appreciate the author’s vulnerability to share these details with us。 Thank you Tandem Collective for my gifted copy
Rahmah
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I wish I had some Tteokbokki right now because this book attacked my soul。
Elizabeth Jorgensen
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I love documentary films and this book is the closest thing to a documentary that I've read。 Rarely do I start and finish a book so quickly -- but I found myself compelled to read out， to find out what was discussed or divulged next。 The author recorded herself during therapy sessions and then transcribed those recordings in this book， I Want to Die But I Want to Eat Tteokpokki。 I found myself connecting with the author and also， in other places， find myself little more than a voyeur。 I would 10 I love documentary films and this book is the closest thing to a documentary that I've read。 Rarely do I start and finish a book so quickly -- but I found myself compelled to read out， to find out what was discussed or divulged next。 The author recorded herself during therapy sessions and then transcribed those recordings in this book， I Want to Die But I Want to Eat Tteokpokki。 I found myself connecting with the author and also， in other places， find myself little more than a voyeur。 I would 100% recommend this text to anyone who is interested in nonfiction， memoir， mental health， relationships， therapy or documentaries。 You can also hear from the author here: https://www。youtube。com/watch？v=S4kY-。。。 。。。more
Ellie
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3，5
Demeter Bibliophile1775
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I enjoy reading about emotional pain， the kind of pain that makes you think that you're not alone， the kind of pain that， in a way touches your own loneliness。 This book is that。 Even if you haven't experienced depression， self-loathing/doubting etc， this work gives you a decent idea of how these feelings could look in one person。 You might even get an idea of how a person who seems to be relatively happy and joyful can have a whole storm of destructive thoughts inside of them。 You might find y I enjoy reading about emotional pain， the kind of pain that makes you think that you're not alone， the kind of pain that， in a way touches your own loneliness。 This book is that。 Even if you haven't experienced depression， self-loathing/doubting etc， this work gives you a decent idea of how these feelings could look in one person。 You might even get an idea of how a person who seems to be relatively happy and joyful can have a whole storm of destructive thoughts inside of them。 You might find yourself relating to these even or not， but I still feel that there were many things to be appreciated here。 Even though I liked lots of the aspects here， I didn't find myself reaching for it as much as I'd like。 It isn't my usual preferred genre so that's probably why， but also I felt that there were some times that I could relate to the things that I was reading a bit too much so I needed to read something else to take my mind off of it。 I'd still recommend it though， I believe that this one worths your time if you're into reading about psychological stuff。 。。。more
Lily Chen
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“To me， sadness is the path of least resistance， the most familiar and close-at-hand emotion I have。 A habit that has encrusted itself onto my everyday。”Thoughts: Not quite what I expected - I was intrigued by the title and expected a read on mental health struggles with a side of tteokbokki and comfort foods （providing a positive to life）。 Instead， most of the book consisted of a series of dialogue between Baek Sehee and her psychiatrist。 It was thought-provoking and allowed me to see through t “To me， sadness is the path of least resistance， the most familiar and close-at-hand emotion I have。 A habit that has encrusted itself onto my everyday。”Thoughts: Not quite what I expected - I was intrigued by the title and expected a read on mental health struggles with a side of tteokbokki and comfort foods （providing a positive to life）。 Instead， most of the book consisted of a series of dialogue between Baek Sehee and her psychiatrist。 It was thought-provoking and allowed me to see through the lense of a serial overthinker who is consumed with worry about what other people think of her， going as far as censoring herself by recording her conversations and berating herself for her mistakes afterwards。 This book portrayed the importance of one’s self esteem and the adverse consequences of having ‘black and white’ or extreme thinking。 It was incredibly introspective， burrowing down deeper and deeper into Baek’s self-scrutiny。 It was a very honest account of her ups and downs。 I felt a bit inspired seeing her apply learnings from the counselling sessions （such as thinking more in 3D and not having drawing extreme conclusions） and improving her mental health。 I liked the resounding end note that ‘everyone’s life has the potential to become better’。 I think Baek did a great job of delivering a raw honest account of human tendencies of being cynical， judgement of ourselves/others as well as the deep desire to be loved unconditionally。 I also enjoyed reading about her past and family dynamics， which have honed some of her own characteristics and personality。 This wasn’t the easiest read as I found the fast topic changes and intense introspection a debilitating but the nice ending did bring it to 4 stars。 。。。more
bri
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